the ups, downs and roundabouts of my life these days.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
When I was packing up stuff from our house, I found a new CD that Simon had bought.
Don't you fake it by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
We really, and I mean really, love their song 'Face Down' but we hadn't got much further than that. This album was the last thing Simon put on his Ipod, a couple of days before he died. (I only just figured this out.)
I've been listening to it for ages now. At first I just skipped between two songs 'Face Down' and 'Cat and Mouse' but I listen from start to finish now, in my car. 'Your Guardian Angel' is SUCH a good song also. These 3 have brought on some major tears. Which is fine. (very safe driving also)
So I just absolutely LOVE this album, and I thank Simon for bringing it into my life :)
It's funny how having good songs to listen to as you're driving makes things so much more bearable. I can listen to all the songs (even the three mentioned) now without crying (most of the time) - I have already come a long way, I can be a lot calmer about things - at least at the moment.
It's nice to think one of my coping strategies was given to me from Simon.
1. New Car! CHECK! 16. Appreciate what I have. CHECK! 9. Experiment with some different jewellery for my new beloved lip piercing. CHECK! sorta. I have had 3 different lip rings. Too much of a hassle to change more often and I'm happy with a small stud.
2-15 = fail!
But who cares, I'm super happy. And a lot of them were stupid in hindsight anyway haha.
BE HAPPY. Have an amazing time O/S with my super duper boyfriend.